A Haunting Thought

Please Read: Thot=thought

A thot always haunts me...a thot...
Only God knows what..but a thot !!

Is this what one calls destiny?
Or is this the way life's supposed to be?
Why just woes and why just tears?
Want to see the time when life would cheer..
Is this the thot that haunts me...a thot...?
Only God knows what..but a thot !!

Can I really face me, myself?
Can I handle the ups and downs or do I need help?
Am I really strong..it does matter,
Scared to see myself break down and shatter,
Is this the thot that haunts me...a thot...?
Only God knows what..but a thot !!

Loosing is not what I want,
Just don't want to hear anymore taunts,
Is life so miserable or does it only seem?
As if being happy has become a dream,
Is this the thot that haunts me...a thot...?
Only God knows what..but a thot !!

There've been mistakes, never to be repeated,
Could be some sins those were committed,
But brooding over what's happened is no solution,
Rather to move on and gather the motion,
Is this the thot that haunts me...a thot...?
Only God knows what..but a thot !!

Want to give my life to love,
Keep things as pure as dove,
Will love ever come to me?
Or should I just let it be?
Is this the thot that haunts me...a thot...?
Only God knows what..but a thot !!

Life doesn't seem to be simple anymore,
Finding answers to solve chaotic life from the core,
Will I be ever able to justify?
Or is there a way to rectify?
Is this the thot that haunts me...a thot...?
Only God knows what..but a thot !!

Will this thot always remain a mystery?
Or can I solve it and be happy?
Again a thot...
Now is this the thot that haunts me...a thot...
Only God knows what..but a thot !!