A lingering THOUGHT..

It just crossed my mind,
A thought which is one of its kind,
I couldn't understand, I couldn't relate,
Was it just cause of my mind's state?
I didn't understand then, can't understand now,
Lose myself for it, not to this extent can I bow,
Collected the dry leaves of past,
Little did I know that they won't last,
Looked back, put together the tattered,
Forgot it all, yet was shattered,
Hurrying it, was that the mistake?
Re-thinking though wasn't a piece of cake,

Tried and tried again, thought it'll work,

Guess destiny had its own way with a smirk!

At 'PASSION' again, with my cappuccino,

What is in store, none of us really know,
They say "whatever happens is for good.."

Can't foresee it, wish I could,

Back to square one, is not what I want,

Pushing away thoughts that really haunt,

Plastered smile is not what I'll have,

For bubbly, happy times, I do crave,

I know Ill have them, I know I will,

But this thought....I can't understand still !! 

The Last Hope

Uncomfortably i make all moves,
To be taken over with his hooves,
He is the man to be reckoned with,
Oh my man! just a myth?
We succumbed to dreams and fantasies,
Hashed, we gulped the last drop of whiskey,
The pain left a hint of love,
Crazily got up and the thought i shoved,
Bottle of Teacher's winked at me,
Looking around for a glass desperately,
Messy clothes and linen lying around,
Silence broken with his snoring sound,
I snuggled and went close,
Sleeping, he gave me the dose,
Early morning pegs were dreamy,
Smooth and damn creamy,
Lovely sight and breeze at the beach,
What did I have to preach?,
Got up with the fragrance of coffee,
His aroma deep in my body,
Was in the cab before i realised,
Happy but chaotic by the sea side,
No commitments haunted my mind,
Waiting for a call, loneliness was all I could find,
Back to pavilion feelings were stronger,
Everything cut short gave me jitters,
Smiles he gave me when he wanted,
My heart kept up, liking never fainted,
Long story never simplified,
The smile never revealed but just pacified, 
Emptiness filled me completely,
Cause he wasn't at all with me,
Hit me bad, I withdrew,
Didn't speak to me, thought i just blew,
I called, i asked,  i begged,
Heart drenched in wine and drugged,
He still didn't understand, still didn't understand,
Kept on screaming, why did He pretend?
Oblivious for sure he wouldn't care,
And I never had a right to ask what and where,
Even now I don't....
I stay away with a hope that it ever may....

…’like tears in the rain…’

...It rained and I cried...I cried and he couldn’t make out why...

For some reason my tears were just water to him…plain water,

Couldn’t he understand or did he not want to? Was it too complicated?

Hard to hear his heart even? I thought I was his heart…

But it’s not best of both worlds that one gets…

This is what life is all about, but is it that tough to comprehend?

Love’s even tougher, easy to get in and hard to live it

Beautiful feeling; hurts a lot…aims at the heart,

If only he would have turned around…once, just for once…

Glanced at me, my eyes would have revealed,

The tears would have spoken, opened up their heart,

Uttered their woe, till they would fall apart,

Anxiously I follow him, running...huffing and puffing,

Futile chase…he disappeared like smoke in the wind…

…why was he in such a hurry?

Only if I knew it all started to end,

Only if I knew he would pretend…

I would not have stood there...all alone…sobbing,

For something pinched my heart…

Tears kept flowing…mere drops of water full of pain…

…’like tears in the rain…’

Jack…Don’t go, please don’t… I barely squeak,

For my heart was choked and my throat sore,

Closed my eyes, rain drops caressing my cheeks,

Memories passed by...a sneak peek,

The never ending romance and the unsaid words,

The playful twinkling eyes and the lingering fragrance,

But why do I think of all the love now?

They say bygones are bygones…

Been 7 awful months, killing me day in day out,

Tears still cup my face…but all in vain,

…’like tears in the rain…’

Threadbare to a rare wear

Pink, Purple, Red and Blue,
Found in all colours and hue,
Look around and you'll find the best,
She exclaims, Hey! this suits me, leave the rest,
With threads swinging, he looks around and says.
Whoa ! Am I the one she's picked?
You were my pals! In my arse you just kicked!
You let go off me cause you all want to be saved,
Hold! Hold! For I had a life already framed...
...by designer dreams and frills,
Her sudden excitement would certainly kill,
My fibre, my grace, my glaze,
Passionate life will now just be a maze,
I'll lose my throne and lose my sheen,
Altered to someone's body-cuts, Am undergoing the machines,
Didn't want to succumb, but all in vain,
Snip-Snap, Chip-Chop, God! this really pains,
I tried to gloss over my appearance, Oh! what a shame,
She has changed my looks, will she even rename?
Completely revamped, I even have a new shade,
Guess am ready, to her perfection I've been made,
Wait! Why is she rolling her eyes at me?
Spoke too soon, the fibre again is full of glee,
Loath machine work, more snips, more chops,
Painfully my ass does hip-hop!
She beams with delight as she hugs me tight,
This is destiny, look at my plight,
Draping me around, she walks the aisle,
Feeling confident, her face wearing a wide smile,
Is it cause of me? I should be a fool not to realise,
Threads making a 'U', I feel the figure cuts,
Soft and serene is the skin, for her body I hug,
Shouldn't be sad, the curves are awesome,
Holding her tight and firm, especially her bosoms,
Yum-Yum and my eyes once again twinkle,
For no rhyme or reason, I was being fickle,
Happy Iam, for now am the craze,
Even more delighted to hug the sexy babe! 

Lifelike Coffee

Life is like a cup of hot steamy coffee,

Hazel, Chocolate, Strong, Light, comes in different forms to me,

Aroma so refreshing, like the dawn drums banging,

Add a little sugar and hear the walls tinkling,

A little soggy, froth melts in mouth,

Never to stay, like the hurdles shout aloud,

Creamy coffee… Oh! So delicious and smooth!

The way we carve our own routes,

Stir and you see swirl in the cup,

In dilemma when life is, seems so rough,

Hearts, leaves, nuts, apples and what not,

Problems get bigger, in our hearts they rot,

Beat it, pour it, it’ll always be bitter,

Panicky situations make the body jitter,

Light a cigarette and it tastes the best,

Team AC and Sunshine, on the bed you rest,

First sip frees you from shackles of sleep,

All ready and out, evenings for a clean sweep,

Anti-tiredness, anti-restlessness, gives complete relaxation,

Like a good night kiss strengthening the connection,

Inspires and motivates, energises you to strive,

A kick on the ass, don’t look back, don’t stop in life!!

Make Out Spree

The moment you held me,
Was the moment when I felt thee,
Deep down wanted to give in to you,
But was clueless how to make it true,
A 'simple kiss' was how it started,
With your passion was really startled,
When you placed your lips close to mine,
My heartbeats rose umpteen times,
Your tongue did explore me through,
And frenzy of kisses you did pour,
Magical was your mystical touch,
Sent jitters in my body as such,
That I was lost in my world of fantasy,
Wild you weren't yet were all crazy,
And when your fingers ran through my hair,
I did not realise, I did not care,
Your heavy breath was felt on my neck,
Nails trying to dig deep on my back,
Bites here and there badly turned me on,
Saw in your eyes a hint of emotion,
Just wanted to keep looking in them,
Did I see love...? nah ! That's whim,
The touch on my thigh was too passionate,
Enough for a girl to be ready to mate,
The soft and desired press on the bust,
Sent me on Cloud 9, was a must,
Though it was bashful at my end,
That's the reason I took the stand,
Of not letting you trespass the 'G',
But Man ! some tricks you knew to unhook the 'B' !
The best of the evening was your broad chest,
When was shy, on it lowered my head to rest,
Felt so safe, secured and assuring,
As if I knew you since the starting,
Such a romantic lover,
Seeing for the first time ever,
Could have spent the whole while with you,
Wonder why the time ran through,
Such a beautiful evening with a charmer,
Would be the best in my life forever !

Dard

Khwahishon ne dum tod diya,
Ummeedon ne daaman chodh diya,
Bekaraari ka aalam yun badha ki,
Zindagi ne munh mod diya,
Sapne bikhar kar choor ho gaye,
Tammanao ka thikana na raha,
Kya apna aur kya paraya,
Zindagi mein koi fasana na raha,
Ab kaisee awaargi, ab kaisa deewanapan,
Kaisi uljhee saansein aur kaisi yeh madhosh dhadkan?
Mayoosi ki chuppi mein kho kar yeh sab,
Badhate hain mere dil ki tadpan,
Zindagi ki manzil kho gayi,
Raah ki shuruaat mein rusvayee ho gayi,
Saath chalte thea jo kabhi hamare,
Unse hamari preet parayi ho gayi,
Ek sapna dekha tha inn aankhon ne meri,
Sapna toot gaya jab aankhein meri khuli,
Dekha jab aaine mein maine apna chehra,
Nami hi nami thi inn aankhon mein meri,
Khushi kab gham mein tabdeel ho gayee,
Iska ehsaa nahi hua mujhe,
Aaj jab akelepan ki aahkhein dikhti hain,
Toh khauffnak andhera dikhta hai mujhe,
Jaane kab iss dard se mujhe rukhsatee milegi,
Jaane kab meri yaadon ki kashti ko kinara milega,
Jaane kab iss laash ko mazaar naseeb hogi,
Jaane kab iss laash ka janazaa uthega..

Long Distance Love

Two hearts moan in a dark shadowy night,
For they are alone & away from each other,
They long for belongingness and togetherness,
Deep in their heart pain screams, though silent,
Lips are sealed, yet eyes speak volumes of love,
The spark of love lights their world,
Without any expectations & committments,
Nurturing their relation with brightness of purity...
...serenity of truth,
The desirous endeavour is to make eternal love,
Day by day they endear each other all the more,
Emotions reflect no lust, no conditions,
Bestowed with power to love & understand; they are Blessed,
Ask them till when do they want to be together?
And their hearts say a little prayer..together..forever and ever..

Him

Your footsteps are my heartbeat,
For my ears they certainly are a treat,
Your fragrance is all over me,
Drives my breath crazy,
Want to keep looking at you,
Mesmerised, Iam really wooed,
Lost in your enchanting eyes,
I can even visualise the sunrise,
Just with you from dusk to dawn,
Blissful feeling with Groans-Sighs-Moans,
For me your presence is simply mystical,
For your touch has something so sensual,
The warmth in your hands raises my body temperature...
..and your naughty eyes leave me blushing forever,
Your voice is even more magical,
That's how love is..really adorable !!

Dil mein kuch toh machalta hai aaj...

Dil mein kuch toh machalta hai aaj,
Soonepan ke andhere ka ek raaz,
Seene se laga ke iski peshaani choom li hai,
Manzilon ke saaye ki aahat dhoondh li hai,
Dooriyaan ab nazdikiyaan,nazdikiyon ka nishaan nahi,
Kyun bekhauff parindey ko iss baat ka ahetaraam nahi?
Aasmaan ke garajne ko apna samajh liya,
Usne toh baras kar humein hai samet diya,
Phir baj pada barsaat mein ik saaz,

Dil mein kuch toh machalta hai aaj,

Lehron ki gehraaiyon ne dikhaaye sapne hazaar,
Pyaar ki lehar toh zindagi mein aati hai ek baar,
De ke le jaati hai sapne beshumaar..bass ek baar...
Dhoondhte hain uss aashiyane ko jisme tha woh timtimata,
Dhadkan mein ghut ti uss rooh ko jo roshni de jata,
Manzil hai kareeb, par raaste ka nishaan nahi,
Kaun apna-paraya, kisise pehchaan nahi,
Lagta hai door parr manzar hai paas,

Dil mein kuch toh machalta hai aaj,
Bulbulon ki numaaiish ka ek andaaz...
Dil mein kuch toh machalta hai aaj..

A Haunting Thought

Please Read: Thot=thought

A thot always haunts me...a thot...
Only God knows what..but a thot !!

Is this what one calls destiny?
Or is this the way life's supposed to be?
Why just woes and why just tears?
Want to see the time when life would cheer..
Is this the thot that haunts me...a thot...?
Only God knows what..but a thot !!

Can I really face me, myself?
Can I handle the ups and downs or do I need help?
Am I really strong..it does matter,
Scared to see myself break down and shatter,
Is this the thot that haunts me...a thot...?
Only God knows what..but a thot !!

Loosing is not what I want,
Just don't want to hear anymore taunts,
Is life so miserable or does it only seem?
As if being happy has become a dream,
Is this the thot that haunts me...a thot...?
Only God knows what..but a thot !!

There've been mistakes, never to be repeated,
Could be some sins those were committed,
But brooding over what's happened is no solution,
Rather to move on and gather the motion,
Is this the thot that haunts me...a thot...?
Only God knows what..but a thot !!

Want to give my life to love,
Keep things as pure as dove,
Will love ever come to me?
Or should I just let it be?
Is this the thot that haunts me...a thot...?
Only God knows what..but a thot !!

Life doesn't seem to be simple anymore,
Finding answers to solve chaotic life from the core,
Will I be ever able to justify?
Or is there a way to rectify?
Is this the thot that haunts me...a thot...?
Only God knows what..but a thot !!

Will this thot always remain a mystery?
Or can I solve it and be happy?
Again a thot...
Now is this the thot that haunts me...a thot...
Only God knows what..but a thot !!

Lonely at the Beach

My heart's filled with loneliness,
For even I can't understand this mess,
I think I've everything in life,
Then what's missing for which I strive,
Am I alone or is it that I just feel?
Why is my life missing all the zeal?
My life has seen various phases,

But seems like that the time races,

Memories left behind as just mere traces,

Though never felt so lonely even in worst cases,

I see this water plunging up and down,
And the waves make a loud sound,

Face caressed by cool breeze,

Tears on my cheeks, it makes them freeze,
I get a smile seeing lovers around,
Merry in togetherness, just love surrounds,
I write something on the sand I sit,
Alone is what I feel still,

What is it in life that I really miss?

Looking for this answer, life's lost its frizz...!





Ultimate Feeling

The feeling so very pure,
What is it that does lure?
Something your tips would explore,
The curves to the core,
Deep sighs...touch on the heart,
A feeling that presses the sentiments,
And lets the emotions out,
The passion of breath & the frenzy of kisses,
Ultimate pout and an apple shaped ass,
The friction so amazing with something so rocking,
Hard rock feel exploring the depth,
Deep inside has it crept?
Passion and emotions ooze out together,
Still wondering was the lover boy inside ever?

Seasons Of Life

Hard as Stone,
Soft as a Feather,
Life goes on,
With changing weather !!

Love is a Season,
Tears are Rain,
Heart breaking Autumns,
Full of Pain !!

Spring of Smiles,
Rare and few,
Dryness of Winters,
Found in Dew !!

Joy of Summers,
Airy Monsoons,
The crack of Thunder,
Eclipses Noon !!

Heavy Heart,
Stormy Mind,
Blooming happiness,
Hard to find !!

Man In The Glass

When you get what you want in your struggle for self
And the world makes you king for a day
Just go to a mirror and look at yourself
And see what that man has to say.

For it isn't your father or mother or wife
Upon whose judgement you must pass;
The fellow whose verdict counts most in your life
Is the one staring back from the glass.

Some people may think you to be a straight shootin' chum
And call you a wonderful guy
But the man in the glass says, you're only a bum
If you can't look at him straight in the eye.

He's the fellow to please, never mind the rest,
For he's with you till the end
And you've passed your most difficult test,
If the man in the glass is your friend.

You may fool the whole world through the journey of life
And get pats on your back as you pass,
But your final reward will be failure and tears
If you've cheated the 'Man in the glass...'

Lamhe

Lamhe tham jaate hain chalte chalte...

Ek soch ruk jaati hai badalte badalte,
Din ud kar nam aankhein sukha dete hain,
Saansein ukhad jaati hain sulajhte sulajhte,

Lamhe tham jaate hain chalte chalte...

Mayusiyat khushi mein tabdeel hui haule haule,
Kuch samajh na paaye hum kya bolen?
Dhadkan bhi bewafa hui machalte machalte,

Lamhe tham jaate hain chalte chalte...

Aasmaan Tak..

Aaj baadalon se taaruf karne ko jee chahta hai..

Chand sitaaron se mulakat karne ko jee chahta hai,

Jiske saaye mein hamari saansien nahi thamti,

Uss mukkammal jahan ko choone ko jee chahta hai...

Aaj baadalon se taaruf karne ko jee chahta hai..

Par hamare udne ko betaab hain,

Dil mein khayal jo hain woh nayab hain,

Uss badli ke rang mein dhal jaane ko jee chahta hai..

Aaj baadalon se taaruf karne ko jee chahta hai..

Enlightening Darkness

Buried in darkness, I can still see it,
Perplexed I stare, about to throw a fit,
Scared as Iam, choked along with,
Barely could squeak, Am I dead?Shit!!
I lie there, sobs everywhere,
I stand here, why doesn't anyone care?
I long for the touch and for a hug,
Hey! look at me, don't shove,
I scream now in desperation,
Am I in some sort of hibernation?
Why are they taking me away?
Why Oh Why can't I stay?
This light above my head holds me tight,
I try to fight with all my might,
Little could I do, so I just sit,
Though no more buried in darkness,
But I still see it...

The Last Drag

It's there right here with me,
Mind fights and heart bears..
the thought..it's charming and heart flutters,
Lips crave and finally utter..
..come close to me and let the fingers play,
Shaky yet luring enough, we'll find the way,
Let me taste you, Let me inhale,
Breath taking charge and exhale,
Crackling sound, veins thumping,
Uncontrollable rush, blood pumping,
Dying to kiss you, dying to caress,
Pout waiting, fingers embrace,
My thoughts scream and I say it loud,
Sitting on the perch and thinking about,
It’d be so beautiful to hold you,
Kiss you lovingly with my pout,
Can’t wait more, lips calling,
Pulling you out is the ultimate feeling,
Ride my breath, that’ the desire,
Holding you tight like the Underwire,
Ignite the fire, flames up and high,
Drag you in, puff you tight,
Smooch you unknowingly, the nerves twitch,
Tantalising feel, ready for the switch?
I drop your clothes, pull you closer,
Another drag…another drag…left with fewer,
Deeper jerk now, you crackle and die of pain,
Darling! It’s really worth the gain,
Rub my fingers and light another one,
No matter which shot, it’s always fun,
You control my mind…never regret,
Damn! Just left with one last cigarette!
 

My Speaking Drink

I looked at it greedily,
It stared right back in my eye,
It said..'hold me, feel me..'
You've been waiting all your life..
..for me to be your better half,
Plant kisses and let's start,
I'm your babe, take me home,
Let's together get stoned,
High will take us to the stars,
Love! take me away..real far,
Can I have some solitude with you?
Be my flower, I'll be the dew,
Will envelope you forever, we won't quit,
Drops trickling down your throat & the lingering hit,
Ice tinkling against the walls,
Creepy wetness slowly crawls,
Will take charge of your senses, drive you crazy,
Caress your body, will make it all hazy,
And when you'd be completely lazy,
I'll hold you & be really cozy,
Pink Love, Blue Love..darling it's so rosy,
Why don't you talk, my Love?
Tell me, how do you feel?
Don't be so quiet, show some zeal!
I once again look in her deep eyes,
Beautiful, captivating, is this the life?
Each day I want to leave her even more,
She's held me tight..leave me you whore!
Oh ! there she cries, let me lick your tears,
I'm addicted to you, my biggest fear,
My Lady! Don't leave me, just go away,
She shocked me when she did say...
..Won't go away, won't leave..marry me,
Honeymoon at sea side, I'll wear my bikini!
That did it, I knew it was my ultimate love,
Drinking her with my Malboro Clove,
Lucky ain't I?
Just got the love of my life !!