The Last Hope

Uncomfortably i make all moves,
To be taken over with his hooves,
He is the man to be reckoned with,
Oh my man! just a myth?
We succumbed to dreams and fantasies,
Hashed, we gulped the last drop of whiskey,
The pain left a hint of love,
Crazily got up and the thought i shoved,
Bottle of Teacher's winked at me,
Looking around for a glass desperately,
Messy clothes and linen lying around,
Silence broken with his snoring sound,
I snuggled and went close,
Sleeping, he gave me the dose,
Early morning pegs were dreamy,
Smooth and damn creamy,
Lovely sight and breeze at the beach,
What did I have to preach?,
Got up with the fragrance of coffee,
His aroma deep in my body,
Was in the cab before i realised,
Happy but chaotic by the sea side,
No commitments haunted my mind,
Waiting for a call, loneliness was all I could find,
Back to pavilion feelings were stronger,
Everything cut short gave me jitters,
Smiles he gave me when he wanted,
My heart kept up, liking never fainted,
Long story never simplified,
The smile never revealed but just pacified, 
Emptiness filled me completely,
Cause he wasn't at all with me,
Hit me bad, I withdrew,
Didn't speak to me, thought i just blew,
I called, i asked,  i begged,
Heart drenched in wine and drugged,
He still didn't understand, still didn't understand,
Kept on screaming, why did He pretend?
Oblivious for sure he wouldn't care,
And I never had a right to ask what and where,
Even now I don't....
I stay away with a hope that it ever may....